Where do we go from here?

In a blink of an eye, yes I will be graduating from NTU, completed my studying phase of life..and on to the next chapter...Well actually, its a bottle of mixed feelings..I am happy for the fact that I will be graduating, but at the same time, jitters are running through my spine..The next question that came straight to my mind, 'where do I go from here?'

Last semester of sch has been rough on me..and I could barely have the time to look into jobs. Friends have been attending interviews, sending resumes etc..I haven't. The only thing I'm able to complete by now is my resume section in the careers.gov.sg website. Have I been cheating to myself that 'nope, I will still definitely have time to find a job even after I graduate' Guess the hard truth is, it's never easy finding a job nowadays.

Graduating out of a Science degree cohort, my results was never glamorous to look at. People have been telling me it's good enough to graduate with just a degree, a passing phase in life. But for the science industry, I guess it wasn't the case. In sciences, the industry is realistic. Either you get good grades and honors and you secured the job, or you're out. Alot of the govt bodies under the sciences division are living example proofs. It scares me with my degree, where can I go from here?

Finding a job, sending resumes, securing a interview (this already scares me), passing them and congrats to getting a new job? This pathway seems remote to me at the moment. I had part time jobs before, but I have long lost the fear or nervousness during an interview. The tackiness to answering typical interview questions, and worse if some came with scientific technical questions (cause seriously I returned all information back to the school once I'm done with them), it's tough just by imagining it.

I have been well protected at least from the working world, by family, friends and bf. Places that I have worked in previously were places where I had connections with. It's like I never had to worry I won't be able to work there. Having a science degree, I really did not know if I had made the right choice 4 years back.

Having seen the reality in life, where friends with good honors went on securing jobs in govt sector, it hit on me as to where can I go? Am I able to get out of my comfort zone, to seek the courage to face whatever that hits on me when I graduated? People once told me, I'm too naive at my age, and I won't be able to survive in the working world. The working world will never be how like a studying student will imagine cause all these while we were well protected by people around us. We never ever got reprimanded once when we make a mistake, there will always be people covering it up cause we are 'students'.

I really do hope I can seek enlightenment soon..what type of job suits me, what type of job that I'm looking for..I really hope I have all the courage needed to step out to secure that first job in life. I need to stop procrastinating and put things to action. I really hope soon...

CNY 2013

Hello Everyone! Today is 元宵节 and this day marks the last day of CNY. Hope everyone had a great CNY this year :) Due to last minute changes, I'm having my CNY in SG this year instead :) Really enjoy how families and friends forgo all commitments in life and come together, just enjoying time spent together. All the food, blessed wishes, gambling, fun and laughter..all these are the reasons why I look so forward to CNY every year. It also marks a new beginning of each year, starting afresh, anew :)

My CNY this year has been pretty busy..due to alot of school commitments. yup last semester so lets go! :)

Pre-CNY:

 Went down Fossil Service Centre at their newly located Manulife Centre, I love how I was greeted to a huge wall of fossil boxes through the decades :) its like a huge wall of art, don't you think so? :) Went there to get my Burberry watch fixed for a brand new year :) It holds special meaning cause it's my 2nd watch from my Boyf :)

Headed down to my favourite store to see if there's any last minute CNY shopping needed to be done! =p Gotta love this sweater but felt its super inappropriate for CNY and it costs a bomb for a sweater so yup nope I didn't grab it :(

Managed to squeezed in a last minute slot for doing my CNY nails :) Love the dainty ribbons my dear manicurist did for me, so feminine! ;) I know my nails are always in good hands when I'm with them :) 

Was walking around Bugis and passed by my favourite Craftholic Store. Grab these 2 little plushies home! They are the limited edition Valentine's Day Plushies! Couldn't resist bagging them home! =D 

CNY:

 Fixed my bed to usher a new year! Say hi to all my soft plushies and new bedsheets! =) Must be wondering how I sleep right? Hahah I have my ways :p

 When the clock strike 12am, its a tradition in our home to gave our dearest blessings to our parents for CNY. This year, I prayed for their health, joy and prosperity, living to a ripe old age :) In return, we were given blessings from them in forms of red packets, which represents 满满的祝福. What matters most isn't the amount, but the blessings from their heart. I love you , Mum and Dad!

So yup, here's my CNY Day 1 outfit! Pardon my sleepy face from 守岁the previous night before :) Decided to go feminine by wearing LoveBonito COVET Fairfield Frock! Decided to grab red cause I simply love how Lace and Red could match so well! Pinned up my hair to look more presentable and fuss-free! Cause we were running late! =x

 My accessories haul for Day 1! Going all Black and White with my fave MySpringFling Boy Satchel, Zara heels, MiuMiu Floral Bracelet, Mauboussin Watch and Chanel Chain :)

 Ain't the Boy Satchel pretty? It compliments almost any outfit well! :)

Day 2 went well with aunt's family dropping by and heading out thereafter to continue my CNY house visiting! Decided on OhVola Gwyneth Dress in Rose and I love the gorgeous back as well as the color of this dress! :)

Day 3 was back to studying due to hectic school schedule for exams and tests even though it was a PH still. Decided not to dampen my mood, thus I chose AmberAvenue Lace Romper in Red to be all comfy and still look like in CNY mood! I love how the lace collar and shoulders with the gorgeous bare-back design goes so well with a romper design! =D

 Day 4 is back to school and work time! Looking forward to greeting my friends well wishes in sch! Donned in AmberAvenue Lace Romper White which got me much compliments! Gorgeous design, great cutting, my most fave romper till date! :)

Day 7: 人日快乐! It was our annual house visiting to Poly Lecturer's home in Bukit Batok :) Every Year, I look forward to this day because I can get to interact with my poly mates on their life so far! So glad all of us are either in the workforce, graduating or in their university in Aussie! The laughter, fun and chit chatting are the best and time always passed by so fast! Decked in LoveBonito Dawson Skater Dress Yellow that brightens up my mood! And I finally got to carry out one of my most fave bags to date: MySpringFling Doctor Bag! It's so gorgeous and I love the Givenchy Inspired Print on the bag! Hee.

My Jewellery for CNY period! Gotta love the rings I got off Cineleisure store! Gonna hunt for more when I'm back there! =D

Day 8: Steamboat at YingTian's Place! :) 

Enjoying steamboat with dearest girls! =D and Hello to my Senior Shermaine! It's nice seeing her irl for the first time =)

 First CNY together with my ShimmeryIntimates and many more to come :) Wore out OhVola Lilya Crochet Frock in Wisteria to compliment the theme! :)

Thanks to dear Ying Tian for the surprise Tiramisu Hero for CNY just for this gathering! :) It's delicious!

On a side note, I loved all the photos we took together back at the photoshoot some time back! The photos turned out well! Thank you girls for coming into my life :) You guys have been great friends! Love u all!

 Day 10 was back to praying to 迎接财神and天公! :) A yearly tradition that needs to be passed down generations!

 Studying at my fave hangouts lately! Got hooked on to Granola with Milk too! My staple at every Studying session! =)

 Basics are the best to make me survive the hectic week of 3 exams and 1 assignment! :) Gotta love Basics from HVV, HH and MP! They are all so comfy! :)

 When our brains went dead on thursday while studying, I decided to go on shopping for awhile! Spotted this nude heels at ZARA and I'm sold! Nude checked, low heels checked, gorgeous design and cutting checked! This heels send me drooling! Hee. Was in Black Leather Shorts x White Shirt! :)

VanityTrove's March 2013! Gotta love the Burberry Body Tender Scent and Laura Mercier Compact!

 On a Side Track, I missed Boyf and I'm flying off a week to see him soon!

Ending off this entry with a random quote that I found so true..It reflects my current state now quite well. I'm just a woman in process, learning as much as I can..to be who I can be..Every lesson learnt, every experience gotten will only shape me up better, I hope..

Till then everyone, have a great 元宵with family and friends!

Cheers!

Symmetry Cafe

An impromptu trip together with my bff to try out new cafe as it's our last week of holidays before the final semester commences next week. :)
Brought her to try Symmetry and as usual, our dear phone GPS brought us walking one big round.lols..a unique cafe located in a quiet area of bugis, it's a nice place to chill and hang out with pals! We totally lost track of our time there! :)
A random note, there's actually daily lunch and dinner menus and weekend brunch menus! Sat's brunch till 3pm and Sun's all day brunch! :) Can't wait to try the brunch menu soon, do hope its with my boyf.

The pretty Lunch Menu :)

Love the wooden theme decor of the cafe :)

Chose a quiet cosy corner by the window :) Yup that's my shy bff :)

Latte! My usual coffee dose!

Her Berries Milkshake! Slurp!

My Turkey Croissant! Delicious=D

Short Ribs & Egg! Yum!

In search of amazing truffle fries. This doesn't disappoint! =D

Ending off with a photo of me with the 2 lovely dolls outside the cafe! =D

 This place is a good place for one to hide and have a good sip with a book to spend off the afternoon.! Definitely heading back for more :)

 

I'm wearing HH top, Topshop Peplum Skirt, Hermes Kelly Double Tour Bracelet, Givenchy Antigona, Tods Flats, Chanel Chain and Burberry Watch :)

Till then.! :)

2013 begins.

2013 begins. A brand new year, a brand new me, a brand new us. We are not like how we are 6 years ago. All those who knows me well will know what I'm facing through. 6 years ago, I found you and you pampered me with all your love to make me feel like a princess. For this, I thank you my dear. Counting down to be nearly 7 years, here I'm..23 years old, gonna start my last semester of studies and ending my 4 years of study life in june. A whole new world awaits out there..the vast opportunities..at least for now, I have a clear mind of something I wish to go for after studies, to work in NEA :)

7 years down the road, you have gradually started your dream as well since the mid of last year. A dream full of responsibilities as well, being the only son. Your future is bright dear, I can feel it. And whenever you tell me I'm part of it, and that you are working for the future for 'us' and not only yourself, I know you are the guy I will want to settle down with. Sadly the simple love life I wish for, will never happen on my end. Came with the guy I love comes great responsibilities that I have to share with, a lifestyle and social culture that's not my league as of now...All these months, you have pushed me,strive me to make me a better person, to be readily accepted by your family.

I never once forget your words, be it of encouragement, love or reverse pyschology, its all these that kept me going to try on changing for a better self for a better me. But looks like all these months I have changed with a wrong mindset, and this has set me in hell and put you on tremendous stress in this rs. Sorry I pushed you too hard.

'Settling down, having our own home, have our rings...' everything will be thrown off my mind from now on..I have think too much for this love that I'm suffocating it. Things will get better, and I will start to change..for a better me. Priorities will be reset, studies and family will come first from now. Only by adjusting your position in my life can I then learn to be more independant, less childish and be more mature.

Thanks for telling me I'm a gem in your life and always has been despite what I have brought upon you. You are a gem in my life too, my one and only superman. I love you always and this will never change. No matter how I'm gonna start adjusting my life..how hard it will all be to attain the true happiness I seek at the end of the day, I will strive on. Thank you too for watching my back always and be there if I were to fall.

I have to learn how my feelings should be expressed, how and whom I can trust to express to. Never wanted to depend on bf too much as much as I could, I'm glad for these girls in my life. My intimates and my bff. Thank you girls for always being there, not forgetting others who have encouraged me through all the way.

True words hurt and it's only through the voices of those who loved you, can these truth be unveiled before you. I should stop being so naggy and whinny. Learning to have faith, courage, intelligence, mature and slowly developing myself from a girl to a woman is what I need to do now.

Throwing back my old self, a brand new me awaits and tomorrow is the day where I truly start a whole new year, a whole new chapter..with new found friends and my love of the life, my superman. Thank you for always letting me know u guys have my back no matter what happens.

Ending off with an impromptu trip to Bintan on Saturday with Boyf :) His holidays has ended and he's bound for flying coming thursday to continue fighting his dream soon, presumably only able to see him when I fly over during CNY! Really love him for everything :)

And we are ready to set for Bintan Island! Whee!

A view of Nirwana Resort Hotel! Amazing view!

Mushroom Soup that's a little too foamy imo!

Lamb Shank Beryani, a first for me!

Our suite room :)

I love that painting!

Love nest for the night!

Love the exquisite wood carvings of local tradition!

Always love the perks of a Bathtub!=D

The calming beach and lovely sky!

Hello its me in LB bikini =)

Spot my man and his love for the beach!

Seafood feast at night at the famous Kelong Restaurant. Food is of average taste.

Leaving my last footprints on the sea sand next morning=)

Last meal here in Bintan!

Ending off with a paranomic view of what our weekend is surrounded by :)

I just wish to end this post saying how much I'm grateful for the life I have now, for the people whom I have met, for the wonderful meals blessed upon me and for the man I ever love. I would not sacrifice anything of these in exchange for anything else in the world. Cause you all are precious to me and always will.

I love you, Boyf.